Military Update

I am finding it harder and harder to convince myself the God is OK with me being a part time Chaplain. I feel like He is telling me not to make this convenient for me. Does that even make sense?

I know that God wants me to be involved with the troops during their time of need. I will be providing them with the spiritual guidance they are longing for. Yet, I am wondering how I can do that one weekend a month and two weeks a year. Granted there is an almost 100% chance that once I graduate I will be activated and shipped off to some sandbox a million miles away from home. But still am I worried that I am doing what is the best for me not Him! I hope that I please Him and honor His calling in my life

Do you know that this year the Army is preparing to report the highest number of suicides since they began tracking the number. Tell me God is not right there using that as more evidence to compel us to act. We need to pray long and hard for these soldiers.

Any who, on a lighter note. I was informed that the Reserve is placing me in a group that will begin drilling while I am in school. That is somewhat cool. I will get to interact with those I am going serve. Right now I am in a job that is way less than fulfilling. I can literally feel it drawing the life right out of my soul. However, God is using that position to train me, I know He uses all things to glorify Him. So, I guess I'm OK with it. While drilling will require me to be away from my family even more, if that is even humanly possible, it will open up other doors that will help. In addition to the hands on benefit I will get tricare and drill pay. That is pretty darn good thank you very much.

Oh, well even with all this going one internally I know that God is good and I still love Jesus. Can't ask for anything more.


-Shalom-

Erik

Somewhat Official

OK, so it is now somewhat official. I have had my first set of orders cut from the Reserves. Granted I am not being deployed or anything but still, it's finally sinking in just how real God's calling is. I am grateful that God spoke so clearly to me and gave me the much needed swift kick. I just wonder how my family will handle this. Anj (my wife) told me that when my oldest daughter heard I would be leaving for six weeks she kinda freaked. That is gonna be hard to leave them. They bring soooo much joy to my life it is no even measurable.

Anj is my lobster(story behind that for another time) and I really can't function without her. My life gets miserable when I am away from her.

Every night before they pretend to fall asleep we pray together and then I sing to the, Faith (youngest daughter) wants I Can't Take My Eye's off You and In DA Morning (Give Me Jesus) and Elly (oldest daughter) wants a new song every night. You know every night I get the chance to cuddle them and then sing to them I am really gonna miss that.

God put my in this place for a reason, and I will not let Him down. I just hope that the time away from my family will pass quickly. Geez, here I am thinking about this and is still 5 months away. Oh well, what else should I be doing at 2300, certainly not Greek homework.