I am finding it harder and harder to convince myself the God is OK with me being a part time Chaplain. I feel like He is telling me not to make this convenient for me. Does that even make sense?
I know that God wants me to be involved with the troops during their time of need. I will be providing them with the spiritual guidance they are longing for. Yet, I am wondering how I can do that one weekend a month and two weeks a year. Granted there is an almost 100% chance that once I graduate I will be activated and shipped off to some sandbox a million miles away from home. But still am I worried that I am doing what is the best for me not Him! I hope that I please Him and honor His calling in my life
Do you know that this year the Army is preparing to report the highest number of suicides since they began tracking the number. Tell me God is not right there using that as more evidence to compel us to act. We need to pray long and hard for these soldiers.
Any who, on a lighter note. I was informed that the Reserve is placing me in a group that will begin drilling while I am in school. That is somewhat cool. I will get to interact with those I am going serve. Right now I am in a job that is way less than fulfilling. I can literally feel it drawing the life right out of my soul. However, God is using that position to train me, I know He uses all things to glorify Him. So, I guess I'm OK with it. While drilling will require me to be away from my family even more, if that is even humanly possible, it will open up other doors that will help. In addition to the hands on benefit I will get tricare and drill pay. That is pretty darn good thank you very much.
Oh, well even with all this going one internally I know that God is good and I still love Jesus. Can't ask for anything more.
-Shalom-
Erik
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